I’m loosing time

blomma1

I’m loosing time

not knowing how to start

and it frustrates me!

A thought constantly knocking on my mental door:

What would daddy have wanted me to do?

I know the answer would be; he wants me to be happy.

But I’m not really happy now.

I can’t get this sentence out of my head;

I want him to still be around!

So I ought to start writing again

but how?

 

 

The word of presence

constantly nagging

the loss of presence

forever lacking

 

continuing life

as normal as ever

resenting the life

normal is never

 

Lotta

 

NaPoWriMo :)

It’s back!

The wonderful, beautiful Month of Poetry.:)

Follow the link on the logo to find out about the wonderful participants.

Last week I lost my dear, beloved father. My mind is still unsettled and I find it very difficult to find words for anything or everything. I will start slowly in NaPoWriMo this year and wait and see where my heart leads me. This is my contribution for day 1

You

I can’t make

the words right

a big lump

is in the way

between my heart

and my hand

 

I don’t want

the lump to

go away

because it is

all there is left

of you

 

I must wait

until it dissolves

tomorrow

or next year

I want it to go away

so that I can write

I want it to stay

so I can be with you

Tomorrow is a new day and we will see what it brings. I wish you a beautiful day today! Lotta